Poem: Why Do I Hesitate?

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A new normal
it feels surreal
when I take up the pen
or my fingers
hover over the keyboard
it feels different
not awful, but the air around me
holds its breath
almost in anticipation
or in judgment
and I hesitate for a brief moment
then proceed to put down
my thoughts
it feels different
in a way that I
cannot describe.
The words just sit there
perhaps it they just need time
to mature and marinate
before it goes into full bloom.

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